In this episode (just a few hours after the 'act') I get into some of the darker experiences I had with porn and my attempts to cover up the behaviors I engaged in. I talk about the qualia of that experience and the activities I engaged in that facilitated that. While giving more context to some of the events, the series begins to focus in more detail the nature of what fueled my decision and yearning for an alternate set of experience.
Describing the darker aspects behind what we look at, the feel of it, beyond our immediate pleasure-seeking.
Experiences with it.
Impressions upon the soul.
Outside of the core activity.
A brief note on 'Experience Altering Substances'.
What it does and what it did.
The spiritual side of things.
Recognizing the hurt.